not feeling happy today. heard some stuff on the issue that i am avoiding. i can't help it. it seems that i have a phobia whenever i think of it. i am lacking the confidence to do well. i am also disappointed with myself. i wanna give up but i can't. i know when i started i also have to end it. i just need time to think through. i dun wanna disappoint all of you too.

i feel that something is currently lacking in my life now. it feels a little empty. and i hardly find any encouragement around me. i need some positive motivation..